So, I realized I was still in love with my ex, Diego. We had a conversation last week where we decided that we were going to be friends and just let things flow…

But last night, we went out to have dinner, we were talking and he started talking like if we were a couple. That took us to a very serius and deep conversation were we ended up toghether again.

I do want to give him this second chance and to proof me that he has changed. I should be jumping arround all exited and happy, but I am not… I am glad that we are able to try it again, but I need to make certain that this is for real before I start jumping around.

I guess that from all that has happen to me this year, I have learned that you can’t just go and trust someone fully if this person has not showed it is worth it. This time I will be careful and I will not do the same as last time, at the first sing of goign into the same direction we were, I’ll drop off the ship and sail away…

I just don’t want to hurt him or that he hurts me again….

Finally I got my fairyi n my belly! well, it is located over the hip bone, butthe point is, she is there!

And here she is, inspired by “Foxglove” by Amy Brown

This week, is the changes week.

I quit my job, and tomorrow I move out on my own, alone.

I still can’t beleive this is happening. Sometimes I tell myself it is only a dream and I will wake up soon. Why if everything that is happening  now is on the best intrest for me? because in some way, I am scared.

Is different to move out from any place becuase you want to, and you decided so, than moving out becuase you have to and there is no other option.

I just need to stay focused and think of the positive side , cuase we always need to find the positive side of everything.

Even tough a lot of things are not how they are supposed to be, This morning I feel happy, tired but happy.

I am doing my best not to worry about things I am not able to solve now, and instead, I am just enjoying what I have now. Just the way it is supposed to be so we can live a peaceful life.

Today is talk like a pirate day!

so arrghh, today we pillage and plunder, find our selves a nice treasure!bring it the gorg mate!

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Last friday was the anivarsay party of a forum I post in, I went with my friend Cristibel, and this is what happens when we both get together and we have a camera available

The smoke was not planned, we realized it after the picture was taken, butit gives a very cool and crazy effect to the pic

Last Friday I didn’t had plans for the night, but the night had plans for me.

As I was driving home, my best friend called and asked me to go out with her. We went to eat something and she paid for everything. While we were eating, my friends called me to the usual bar. I got there and they bought me a tequila :D. When the bar closed , I wanted to go to a certain place where there is always electronic music and I wanted to dance. My friends dumped me, so i went to my car and started my home, when Luis told me to go to this place I wanted to go.

As if accepting an invitation from him was not bad enough, we bought me two drinks “Ruso Negro”, it’s vodka with coffee liquor. We went to dance, and he started kissing my cheek and all of a sudden i just kissed him… That is what i think I did wrong…

He’s been trying to date me for a long time, but he knows how I feel about Gabriel, but he has keep on trying. So I decided to go out with him, as a friend, and I end up kissing him….

My head is a mess right now… Everyone is telling me that i should tell Gabriel how I feel about him, or forget about him and move on forward…. But, with this guy? They now each other and are kind of friends….

I don’t know!

I love going to the beach!!!! and this weekend was just great!

I did miss him a lot, specially because I was the only one alone, well Rodol was alone because Gaby was not able to go, but that’sa different situation.

For a moment I kind of hated them, but later I just focused on enjoying the trip, no mater what.

And well, I had fun with my camera

Always search for it.

Nor everything is so bad. I was without a car for a week, it was driving me crazy, but I got to see him every morning, even sleep next to him in the bus. We had lots of conversations, one which included the possibility of  him traveling with me again, and guess who comes to work with me again?

This will give me more chances to find out if he wants to be friends with me or if he is trying to come back with me or what.

At the moment, I am just enjoying his company, the conversation… If it is meant to be, then it will happen.

“Good things comes to those who waits”

So, I’ve been without a car since Monday. I am really tired to be running around by bus, considering that I have to get up at 4am and all the places I have to go to, moving by bus is really a pain.

But  not today. This morning, he sat next to me at the company’s bus. We talked for a moment and then we both fell asleep. So, for today, not having a car was good for me, because I could enjoy a moment, a short and simple, but wonderful moment next to him.

Waking up and smelling him, turn my head and see him next to me, that alone, made my day.

Part of the process of enjoying whatever the day brings and stop being a time freak planing my life minute by minute.